I Ain't Your Bitch, Bitch

I don't think it will surprise any of my readers to learn that I've always had an anger problem. When I was very young I internalized all my anger until I erupted and bit my sisters with such ferocity that there was no way to convince me to release them. When I got a little older I actually began getting into physical altercations. "Fist fights," choke holds, shoving wars here and there. The last fight I've been in was the little situation at the dollar theater in Morganton with DJ and Brittany. That's right I'm super classy.

I'm bringing all of this up now, because since that fight I've tried really hard to get my temper under control. I still have a reputation for having a temper, but it's more for being extremely honest with people than anything else. I've actually been really proud of the fact that I no longer get into physical spats. The problem is that I think I've reverted to that small girl that takes shit and internalizes it until one day I fucking explode. That's not to say I don't speak my mind, I definitely still do. It's just that there are times when my temper is pushed to the limit and I don't do anything because I'm scared of what I'll do if I confront a situation.

That's kind of what's happening with my old roommate and my new roommate. I don't want to get into the minutiae of the situation, but basically I'm getting played for about $100. In the big scheme of things it isn't much money. It's kind of the principle of the thing though. I am not responsible for paying this money. Should I just let it go to lessen the stress in my life? Could I live with myself knowing I let someone roll over me like that? Do I really want to take it to court which is what it seems is going to happen? This situation reminds of a watered down version of how I felt when I got a restraining order against Brittany. I got that order not because I was scared of her or felt threatened in any way. It was to prove a point and also to protect her from me. I may take Jamie to court not because I can't find the $100 to pay the bills she refuses to pay, but to prove a point. I don't think I can allow someone to get away with speaking to me the way she does. Also, I find it ridiculous that someone who brags about making $50,000 a year at age 24 and flaunts her money with name brand everything, is trying so hard to make a waitress who can barely make ends meet at times pay her bills for her. I'm sorry I know that was a crazy long run-on sentence.